42/100 One More Time
I'm fighting my inner demons. My inner voice. Let it be assumptions, judgements or anxiety. It's a pain in the ass, but the fight is worth it. It keeps me alive and keeps me going.
41/100 No Se
I drew that with my left hand, because I felt like it. I'm learning to treasure the moment, be in tune with the present "now". For instance, I'll be doing chores, taking a stroll, doing a little shopping, then mid-way of those, a sudden burst of creativity or a brilliant idea waiting to be explored. Which then, I'll be running home to release that artist jini onto the pages before it fleets away like a shooting star. I'm learning to let the calling come to me. The hardest part is to wait for it patiently.
40/100 Shades of Grey
Dance, dance, dance.
39/100 Bent
This music reminds me of the sunset beach. I love it. It's the the best time of the day where rest lies ahead and your bed patiently awaits for your snuggle and embrace.
38/100 Impression of You
I just came back from a wonderful Sip & Sketch session at the YMCA. Small turnout, but big hearts and kind folks that truly care about the community and discovering creativity within. Genuine people connecting on a personal level is a rare thing these days. I find that when we're connecting through art making, the experience is all the more special. I say this because when you're expressing your art or craft, you're sharing a vulnerable side of you to the world. It is raw, illogical and absurd. But most of all, it is genuine and authentic. So to part take in that communal experience, we're already on a borderline friend zone level (like just almost there).
I also noticed that I've changed in subtle ways to be more open to people. My interaction with others now is more rooted on topics of life, passion and values. I've stopped leading my conversations with "What do you do?", because in all honesty, I don't really care. I'm learning to listen more intently for words both said and unsaid. I love chatting with Lyft/Uber drivers to learn more about the neighbourhoods they serve. I'm resisting the need to browse or surf online when I'm in the presence of another human being. Also, giving other people the benefit of the doubt because first impressions can be easy to judge. It's like what they say about everyone you meet is fighting a different battle or putting up a front for self defense, I'm still training myself to be more understanding of that. Be open, Dig deep and embrace all is kind of the mantra I'm going for these days.
37/100 Sunshine
I had a dream last night of a little girl, knife in both hands, running to attack me. Thankfully, I was able to hold her down and call for help. Then, an old teacher of mine told me firmly that I should quit being an artist. I even tried to reason with her. It's amazing how many doubts and insecurities exist in the bottom of your subconscious. We need to remind ourselves that those are just noise. We will be fine if we just take some time to let them fade.